Well here I am...my first blog...the first of many...
Now I know you are wondering about the 'Blame it on Julia' bit..there is no real Julia to blame, in fact why I called it that title was mainly based on the movie 'Julia & Julia'.
One of the most charming movies I have seen in a long time..it got me thinking and some how it stirred something in me to do something about myself and to find that one thing which keeps me ticking....now I don't know about you but have you ever felt sometimes you just need to be happy with you...
All my life I have felt I needed to do something or to be someonen for me to be normal. I go from one project to the next trying to figure out what I'm ment to be doing or the age ole' question,'who am I or what am I ment to be doing'. And if I'm not doing something, then I'm not normal....it's like this contant war within myself to do something...It boils down to this...'I just want to be happy with me...' Do you ever get that way
However, after watching that movie, I did feel like I should be doing something...but I got to thinking, what if I did nothing and just take in life, enjoy being me, enjoy being mum, enjoy being wife and friend?
We have such high expectations of ourselves..We live in a world where we have to be something or do something...we have list of 'to do's'....got to get this, got to be there...so on & so on...Are we ever happy with ourselves?
The old 'smell the roses' doesn't seem so trivial after all. Now I am not saying we shouldn't have dream and things to keep us occupied but if it is all we do, when do we really get to enjoy life and all it has to offer...in my time of 'doing stuff/being someone/finding myself' I am sure I have missed out on what my children are trying to say to me...I am sure of it...Gosh, I am sure they have missed mummy too.
So what is the purpose of this blog...maybe I will figure it out as I go...but I am going to put in a years effort and record all the things I am 'not doing'....
Funny though, I do still have things to do but I want to change my direction I am going in...who knows maybe I will find myself on the way
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