There is part of me that feels too many people know I want to walk to Sydney. I feel, if I let too many people know and I don't go through with the walk, I will be left feeling open to those comments people tend to keep to themselves and having a reinforced opinion about me.
Maybe I am being too hard on people, maybe if I don't go, I just have to suck it up and move on. I don't want to do that though, I want to walk to Sydney and then if I don't do the second leg of my walk (April), I will have nothing to prove because I would have already done my walk in January.
Even though January is still some time a way, I feel it is all creeping up on me and I don't have much longer before it is here. I've got a lot of distance to travel inbetween now and then.
I am feeling a little low today. A sense of being overwhelmed too. I don't think I've set the bar too high. Really I've just got to go for it and believe I am better for it.
Anyway, my husband thinks there is already a lot of people that know of my intention to walk. He thinks I will be a talking point on facebook and the like. I beg to differ in someway. I don't think what I am doing is all that important or unique. People have better things to do than place me in their conversation. The people walking for a cause, they are important to focus on. Me I am just walking to Sydney because I put it on my bucket list and because it is there. Not really that remarkable. Although, I might feel a little different come April next year.
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Julia, I no longer blame you...
Just looking at the title of my blog. I've come a long way from my beginnings of Julia. No longer am I waiting for something to happen but I am making it happen.
I understand why I started the 'Nothing' theory. My head was so full of traffic, I found it in some way crippling. It is a lot of hard work trying to sort out what noise to listen to and what noise to ignore. However it is also a lot of work to deal with watching it all go by and waiting for something to happen.
Julia is still a part of it all. If it wasn't for that wonderful movie (Julia and Julia) and the conviction of the character doing something about how she felt with her writing and starting investing in her passion (writing, then cooking), she would have missed her chance to make a difference to herself and to what she loved doing. She would have missed what made her heart sing. Julia would have also missed finding out something remarkable about herself. I want to be remarkable. To me, then to my family and my daughters. Because I want them to know they also can be remarkable.
So where does this leave me and my theory and what started it all. Well I am changing the 'Nothing' theory to 'Something' theory. No one ever accomplished anything by doing nothing. Look at people like Oprah. Bet she never said to herself, 'I am just gonna wait till something happens, so I am going to do nothing for now'. I no longer want to wait! I am sick of waiting my turn! I will aspire to do that bucket list and go for what my heart sings.
On that note, I am off to do 'something' and I am on my way to Sydney!
I understand why I started the 'Nothing' theory. My head was so full of traffic, I found it in some way crippling. It is a lot of hard work trying to sort out what noise to listen to and what noise to ignore. However it is also a lot of work to deal with watching it all go by and waiting for something to happen.
Julia is still a part of it all. If it wasn't for that wonderful movie (Julia and Julia) and the conviction of the character doing something about how she felt with her writing and starting investing in her passion (writing, then cooking), she would have missed her chance to make a difference to herself and to what she loved doing. She would have missed what made her heart sing. Julia would have also missed finding out something remarkable about herself. I want to be remarkable. To me, then to my family and my daughters. Because I want them to know they also can be remarkable.
So where does this leave me and my theory and what started it all. Well I am changing the 'Nothing' theory to 'Something' theory. No one ever accomplished anything by doing nothing. Look at people like Oprah. Bet she never said to herself, 'I am just gonna wait till something happens, so I am going to do nothing for now'. I no longer want to wait! I am sick of waiting my turn! I will aspire to do that bucket list and go for what my heart sings.
On that note, I am off to do 'something' and I am on my way to Sydney!
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Time is ticking..
It's 14 days since I began my venture into the bucket list. The thing which is on my mind most of the time is my walk to Sydney. Even though it is only day 14 I already feel time is ticking on and I feel I haven't really that much time to achieve it.
One of my goals in walking to Sydney was keep my cards close to my chest so I have myself to answer to. And there's the fear of me not actually doing the walk after I have told the world. This is why I did'nt tell to many people. Now there is a few more people who know besides your good selves (all of America and Alaska hehehe).
My good husband told a friend at dinner the other day. I just cringed because I know what was coming next, 'Why do you want to do that'? My reply of course was, 'because it's there'. The other side of the coin is, I am more determined to get it done because let's face it, no one (especially myself) wants to be judged.
Yesterday after a couple of Champangnes I also told a couple of trusted friends. I could hear myself telling me, 'DON'T' but when you're tipsy, honesty always shows itself in some form. Again I was asked why and I told them my goal. Then something I didn't expect, 'I'll do it with you'. Wow!!
A very encouraging response because it again concretes me doing what I set out to do and it make me really want to focus on every aspect of this journey.
It concretes how much I have to also get not just my fitness right but the fuel to get me there right. I have to be on top of my eating and my exercise or I will not make it. If I am not prepared to eat according to my training then I will be one fat, sore, exhausted and possible injured indiviual in January 4 and on the 10th of April.
It's all very surreal though. I can't believe I am setting myself up for something. Is it failure or success? Maybe it's all good and it is a matter of how I look at it. It is just a walk after all and I am just going for a walk one day in January and one day in April. Anything thing in between is not really important.
One of my goals in walking to Sydney was keep my cards close to my chest so I have myself to answer to. And there's the fear of me not actually doing the walk after I have told the world. This is why I did'nt tell to many people. Now there is a few more people who know besides your good selves (all of America and Alaska hehehe).
My good husband told a friend at dinner the other day. I just cringed because I know what was coming next, 'Why do you want to do that'? My reply of course was, 'because it's there'. The other side of the coin is, I am more determined to get it done because let's face it, no one (especially myself) wants to be judged.
Yesterday after a couple of Champangnes I also told a couple of trusted friends. I could hear myself telling me, 'DON'T' but when you're tipsy, honesty always shows itself in some form. Again I was asked why and I told them my goal. Then something I didn't expect, 'I'll do it with you'. Wow!!
A very encouraging response because it again concretes me doing what I set out to do and it make me really want to focus on every aspect of this journey.
It concretes how much I have to also get not just my fitness right but the fuel to get me there right. I have to be on top of my eating and my exercise or I will not make it. If I am not prepared to eat according to my training then I will be one fat, sore, exhausted and possible injured indiviual in January 4 and on the 10th of April.
It's all very surreal though. I can't believe I am setting myself up for something. Is it failure or success? Maybe it's all good and it is a matter of how I look at it. It is just a walk after all and I am just going for a walk one day in January and one day in April. Anything thing in between is not really important.
Thursday, October 4, 2012
It's all so quiet.
I'm sitting in my dining room thinking about a lot of things. It's all so quiet. I can hear distant traffic from the building of an estate down the road. There is a plane which is just going over head. Lots of plane traffic in Sydney. I don't live that close to the airport but we still get the traffic from it. Sometimes the planes are so close, I can make out how big they are and which airline it is.
The wind is beginning to pick up and I can hear how strong it is even though it has just started to bring in the southerly. However the breeze is still hot and stifling. I was going to start spraying weed killer but it wouldn't be safe and in the cool change is bringing some rain. A relief to this hot day.
My mind is forever now thinking of my training for my walk to Sydney. It seems to be all I think about now. I'm feeling very excited that I am aiming for this walk and everything I do at this moment in time is focussed on Jan 4 and April 11. Yet there is still so much to do. I'm not ever close to accomplishing it.
My ankle is starting to ache and there is part of me that worries how my ankle will cope with all the training. Also my knee are not doing the best either. Yet I feel, if I let the pain and discomfort of my joints dictate how I should cope, then I will never see this bucket list through. I don't think I've ever been this focussed on anything!
The quiet in the house is so loud. My girls are at Vacation care doing some really fun stuff and I am here by myself. Looking around I have so much to do. The kitchen needs cleaning, dishes to be done. I have sticky floors from daughter 2 spilling cordial or an ice block she was eating yesterday evening. I only noticed it this morning but didn't have time to deal with it.
I think it's so weird how loud quiet can be. Yet in my time by myself with all this quiet, it is strange. Being alone with no noise from, TV or radio or CD doesn't make it easier to do anything because I still have to sort out or prioritise what I need to do, even though it stares me in the face. My lounge room is a mess. The dining room table is a clutter with all sorts of crap and I have washing to do...blah blah blah.
A long time ago before I was married, I lived by myself and after church one day I walked in to my tiny little appartment to silience. It overwhelmed me so much and I burst into tears. I prayed God to give me someone to come home to, I wanted noise. WHAT WAS I THINKING! Now I ache sometimes for the quiet but when I have it, like today, I feel there is something missing. I've just got to laugh at myself. That must be an irony? Isn't it?
In the quiet I am also thinking of other stuff on my bucket list and I feel I should at least write down some of the things down so you will know what else I am intending to do.
For a start I have written a play and it is being performed next year, which I am so looking forward to but on my bucket list, I have put, I wish to write 2 more plays and to perform in them. I kind of feel if I'm not getting acting work, then I need to create work for myself.
I will give you 10 more things I have put on my bucket list. Like I said before, I may not achieve all of them or some of them might be rather unrealistic but I have nothing to lose. It is not a race and my life won't end if I miss a few. One thing however I fear most about life, is not change but I fear staying the same. That is probably my greatest fear with in myself. Therefore I am willing to put the most over the top thing on my bucket list.
OK so you know No1..Walking to Sydney in a day. I have added walking home as well.
2. Learn to speak french fluently, 3. Go to Europe for 6 weeks, 4. Lose 30 Kgm, 6. Save $100,00 and give$100,00, 5 Participate in a bike ride fundraiser, 6. Do a tour of my play around Australia, 7. Do a missions trek in Bolivia, 8. Read the Bible through 4x, 9. Be cast in a period piece in the UK, 10. Go on a wine tour with my husband around Australia and finally; for now (I have 54 items on my bucket list)...on my wall in the dining room, I have 2 pictures of 2 different cafe in Paris. When I saw them for the first time, I emotionally connected with them. I started to cry when I looked at them, they moved me that much. Well, I want to sit at the cafes. I want to be the person in those pictures and sit and have a latte and be a part of that picture that I felt emotional about.
If I never so anything else but do the walk to Sydney and sit at those Cafes then I have succeeded and I will have given myself and my daughters something to aim for in life...to dream and never give up on any dream.
The wind is beginning to pick up and I can hear how strong it is even though it has just started to bring in the southerly. However the breeze is still hot and stifling. I was going to start spraying weed killer but it wouldn't be safe and in the cool change is bringing some rain. A relief to this hot day.
My mind is forever now thinking of my training for my walk to Sydney. It seems to be all I think about now. I'm feeling very excited that I am aiming for this walk and everything I do at this moment in time is focussed on Jan 4 and April 11. Yet there is still so much to do. I'm not ever close to accomplishing it.
My ankle is starting to ache and there is part of me that worries how my ankle will cope with all the training. Also my knee are not doing the best either. Yet I feel, if I let the pain and discomfort of my joints dictate how I should cope, then I will never see this bucket list through. I don't think I've ever been this focussed on anything!
The quiet in the house is so loud. My girls are at Vacation care doing some really fun stuff and I am here by myself. Looking around I have so much to do. The kitchen needs cleaning, dishes to be done. I have sticky floors from daughter 2 spilling cordial or an ice block she was eating yesterday evening. I only noticed it this morning but didn't have time to deal with it.
I think it's so weird how loud quiet can be. Yet in my time by myself with all this quiet, it is strange. Being alone with no noise from, TV or radio or CD doesn't make it easier to do anything because I still have to sort out or prioritise what I need to do, even though it stares me in the face. My lounge room is a mess. The dining room table is a clutter with all sorts of crap and I have washing to do...blah blah blah.
A long time ago before I was married, I lived by myself and after church one day I walked in to my tiny little appartment to silience. It overwhelmed me so much and I burst into tears. I prayed God to give me someone to come home to, I wanted noise. WHAT WAS I THINKING! Now I ache sometimes for the quiet but when I have it, like today, I feel there is something missing. I've just got to laugh at myself. That must be an irony? Isn't it?
In the quiet I am also thinking of other stuff on my bucket list and I feel I should at least write down some of the things down so you will know what else I am intending to do.
For a start I have written a play and it is being performed next year, which I am so looking forward to but on my bucket list, I have put, I wish to write 2 more plays and to perform in them. I kind of feel if I'm not getting acting work, then I need to create work for myself.
I will give you 10 more things I have put on my bucket list. Like I said before, I may not achieve all of them or some of them might be rather unrealistic but I have nothing to lose. It is not a race and my life won't end if I miss a few. One thing however I fear most about life, is not change but I fear staying the same. That is probably my greatest fear with in myself. Therefore I am willing to put the most over the top thing on my bucket list.
OK so you know No1..Walking to Sydney in a day. I have added walking home as well.
2. Learn to speak french fluently, 3. Go to Europe for 6 weeks, 4. Lose 30 Kgm, 6. Save $100,00 and give$100,00, 5 Participate in a bike ride fundraiser, 6. Do a tour of my play around Australia, 7. Do a missions trek in Bolivia, 8. Read the Bible through 4x, 9. Be cast in a period piece in the UK, 10. Go on a wine tour with my husband around Australia and finally; for now (I have 54 items on my bucket list)...on my wall in the dining room, I have 2 pictures of 2 different cafe in Paris. When I saw them for the first time, I emotionally connected with them. I started to cry when I looked at them, they moved me that much. Well, I want to sit at the cafes. I want to be the person in those pictures and sit and have a latte and be a part of that picture that I felt emotional about.
If I never so anything else but do the walk to Sydney and sit at those Cafes then I have succeeded and I will have given myself and my daughters something to aim for in life...to dream and never give up on any dream.
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
About that...
Why do I find technology so hard...tried to post video and didn't have much luck..will keep trying so hold on to your hats, I will get it going but just not now. I am sure I will figure it out. Hopefully not too long.
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Did I mention...?
Monday, October 1, 2012
It's gonna be a long ride.
Day 2 and I am sore! My back, my ankle, my knees. I know it is not going to be an easy ride. It has only just began but I am going to see this through. Sydney here I come.
Today was on the exercise bike. I kept looking at myself in the mirror and saw every lump and bump, so I know I have my work cut out for me. My weight will effect my performance but I am prepared for that.
I do worry how my ankle and knees will hold out but if I don't continue going, they will get worse and I can't afford that, not physically, not mental or emotionally and definately not finacially. If I have to have another operation on my joints I will slide to a low place and I never want to go there ever again!!! So I have pain, get over it and get on with it I say.
Here's to tomorrow. Another day closer to Sydney, another day closer to completing the bucket list. Yes it will be a long ride but in the end I would have done it!
Today was on the exercise bike. I kept looking at myself in the mirror and saw every lump and bump, so I know I have my work cut out for me. My weight will effect my performance but I am prepared for that.
I do worry how my ankle and knees will hold out but if I don't continue going, they will get worse and I can't afford that, not physically, not mental or emotionally and definately not finacially. If I have to have another operation on my joints I will slide to a low place and I never want to go there ever again!!! So I have pain, get over it and get on with it I say.
Here's to tomorrow. Another day closer to Sydney, another day closer to completing the bucket list. Yes it will be a long ride but in the end I would have done it!
The Bucket list
As cliche as it sounds, I started my bucket list yesterday. It is quite impressive (in my opinion). Being only 6years and 6 months till I am 50 I thought I better get a move on. In fact I think I am more concerned about it being 6 months till I turn 44 than the whole 50 senario.
Some of the things on the list might be a little unrealistic but I'm willing to give it a good go. I might not even get them done until I am 60 but for me it's about doing something about how I am feeling. I yet to achieve so much. Nothing I can say my daughter can use as example. It's so important for me to know my daughters had a good example while growing up. A lot of what I want to do in life is for my girls to see, 'if mum went for her dreams, then I can'.
One thing on my bucket list is, walking to Sydney from Kellyville in 1 day. That may not be much to some people but if you are familiar with Sydney, it is by no means and easy feat. It is 40 klm or 24.85 miles. I can't say why I thought this would even be worthy of any things to do but there is is. I am walking to Sydney! Not just that though, I am walking there and then turning around and walking back home.
'Why would you want to do that'? I hear you ask. 'That's what public transport is for', I also hear you say. Well not for any particular reason. Not because I want to be fit or because I need to lose 25-30 kg or 70lbs, not for a charity or a cause but because it's there. It's kind of like the bear and the mountain. "Why did the bear climb the mountain? Because it's there". Maybe this will spark in me lots of things I never thought I could do and make all the other things I want to do seem so much easier to achieve. Plus I feel I want to do something, anything!
I do want to do a charity walk or race or things on those lines but not until I have shown myself my level of commitment. It is so important for me to do this! I put it out there to my husband and daughters, now I have to follow through.
My goal is not to tell too many people about my intension. I feel if I tell everyone about me walking to Sydney, if I fail to follow through, I am open to well meaning comments of 'Oh well, not too worry, you did try'. I want to expect more from myself and do it! Why if I don't want everyone to know do I put it on my blog? The good thing is the people that read my blog are about 7 people and I don't know them. Oh yeah, thanks for reading my blog to those that read my blog.
Yesterday I started. I thought if I am going to do this then I need to start. Yes, I have till I am 50 but I wanted to do it now. Plus I don't want to be nearly 50 before I decide to get it done.
So it begins!! On 4 Jan 2013 I will be walking to Sydney.
My training consists of a gradual progression of distance so I will build stamina and strength. It is not a race. I don't need to prove to any one I am the fittest or the fastest but I just have to maintain a good walking speed and try to cut time in my walking so I will make good time in getting to Sydney. Every 3 weeks I will also increase the distance of walking. I don't want to spend 12 or 14 hours walking so a gradual progression will help my body cope with the demand on my body. I will record my progress everytime and hopefully my time will get better the more I walk. Also I will be getting fit by riding my bike and using my home gym to increase the strength in my legs.
The distance I covered yesterday was 7.2klm or 4.3m and I made it in 1 hr 40 mins, my next walk training will be on Saturday and inbetween then it will be riding. My goal is to shave about a 5 minutes of my time. My ultimate goal is to walk to Sydney and then a return walk on the 11 April with in 24 hours and then celebrate my achievement at the Castle Hill RSL on the 12th of April for my 44th birthday.
Will you stay with me and follow my progress? It will be cool to have you come along on this ride. Who knows maybe you can do something amazing for your own bucket list.
love lizz
Some of the things on the list might be a little unrealistic but I'm willing to give it a good go. I might not even get them done until I am 60 but for me it's about doing something about how I am feeling. I yet to achieve so much. Nothing I can say my daughter can use as example. It's so important for me to know my daughters had a good example while growing up. A lot of what I want to do in life is for my girls to see, 'if mum went for her dreams, then I can'.
One thing on my bucket list is, walking to Sydney from Kellyville in 1 day. That may not be much to some people but if you are familiar with Sydney, it is by no means and easy feat. It is 40 klm or 24.85 miles. I can't say why I thought this would even be worthy of any things to do but there is is. I am walking to Sydney! Not just that though, I am walking there and then turning around and walking back home.
'Why would you want to do that'? I hear you ask. 'That's what public transport is for', I also hear you say. Well not for any particular reason. Not because I want to be fit or because I need to lose 25-30 kg or 70lbs, not for a charity or a cause but because it's there. It's kind of like the bear and the mountain. "Why did the bear climb the mountain? Because it's there". Maybe this will spark in me lots of things I never thought I could do and make all the other things I want to do seem so much easier to achieve. Plus I feel I want to do something, anything!
I do want to do a charity walk or race or things on those lines but not until I have shown myself my level of commitment. It is so important for me to do this! I put it out there to my husband and daughters, now I have to follow through.
My goal is not to tell too many people about my intension. I feel if I tell everyone about me walking to Sydney, if I fail to follow through, I am open to well meaning comments of 'Oh well, not too worry, you did try'. I want to expect more from myself and do it! Why if I don't want everyone to know do I put it on my blog? The good thing is the people that read my blog are about 7 people and I don't know them. Oh yeah, thanks for reading my blog to those that read my blog.
Yesterday I started. I thought if I am going to do this then I need to start. Yes, I have till I am 50 but I wanted to do it now. Plus I don't want to be nearly 50 before I decide to get it done.
So it begins!! On 4 Jan 2013 I will be walking to Sydney.
My training consists of a gradual progression of distance so I will build stamina and strength. It is not a race. I don't need to prove to any one I am the fittest or the fastest but I just have to maintain a good walking speed and try to cut time in my walking so I will make good time in getting to Sydney. Every 3 weeks I will also increase the distance of walking. I don't want to spend 12 or 14 hours walking so a gradual progression will help my body cope with the demand on my body. I will record my progress everytime and hopefully my time will get better the more I walk. Also I will be getting fit by riding my bike and using my home gym to increase the strength in my legs.
The distance I covered yesterday was 7.2klm or 4.3m and I made it in 1 hr 40 mins, my next walk training will be on Saturday and inbetween then it will be riding. My goal is to shave about a 5 minutes of my time. My ultimate goal is to walk to Sydney and then a return walk on the 11 April with in 24 hours and then celebrate my achievement at the Castle Hill RSL on the 12th of April for my 44th birthday.
Will you stay with me and follow my progress? It will be cool to have you come along on this ride. Who knows maybe you can do something amazing for your own bucket list.
love lizz
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