Not sure why my title is 'Take responsibility'. On the other hand I do.
You know when you go away with your family for holiday and time after time you go the same way you did before and you see the same view again and again?
I kind of feel that is me.
Yet every time you go on the same trip, the scenery is just a little different because the tree grew taller or there is another park bench in that same park. Or there is less or more buildings on your journey. A slight change every time you revisit the same place. This is my reality.
I seem to go the same way, see the same things and revisit it all over again. However, the view is altered just slightly. It's not just different because the view has change but I have changed also. I think that is the point.
Yes, I take responsibility of things which are the same. Like, my aim to become a writer or an actor or a Nutrimetics manager or lose weight. I get to a certain point and I just stop or I don't go further. I accept the way life is at that moment or I don't add to the experience. Kind of like I have settled for what I feel I have become or won't become.
However, just like the trip, every time might be the same. I might see the same things and revisit what is familiar but each time I need to remember, the view is a little bit different to the last. Not forgetting though, it changes because life changes... that's the beauty of life...
I take responsibility for: if I want change in my life and change my surroundings, it is me who has to change. This is great for me at the moment because, for the first time, there is no guilt attached. Normally I would punish myself for not getting to where I need to go such as becoming manager or writing my next book or getting my next play or loosing 5 kilo, but for some reason, I don't feel guilty anymore... maybe its my age, maybe it is because I am truly happy with who I am. I don't know but one thing I know is I don't want to question it. Not having guilt is quite liberating.
At the end of the day, I am only letting myself down. I want my life to make a statement but I want more to remember the scenery for the changes it has made over the years and find the beauty in the slight changes too, no matter how big or small they may be.
You know when you go away with your family for holiday and time after time you go the same way you did before and you see the same view again and again?
I kind of feel that is me.
Yet every time you go on the same trip, the scenery is just a little different because the tree grew taller or there is another park bench in that same park. Or there is less or more buildings on your journey. A slight change every time you revisit the same place. This is my reality.
I seem to go the same way, see the same things and revisit it all over again. However, the view is altered just slightly. It's not just different because the view has change but I have changed also. I think that is the point.
Yes, I take responsibility of things which are the same. Like, my aim to become a writer or an actor or a Nutrimetics manager or lose weight. I get to a certain point and I just stop or I don't go further. I accept the way life is at that moment or I don't add to the experience. Kind of like I have settled for what I feel I have become or won't become.
However, just like the trip, every time might be the same. I might see the same things and revisit what is familiar but each time I need to remember, the view is a little bit different to the last. Not forgetting though, it changes because life changes... that's the beauty of life...
I take responsibility for: if I want change in my life and change my surroundings, it is me who has to change. This is great for me at the moment because, for the first time, there is no guilt attached. Normally I would punish myself for not getting to where I need to go such as becoming manager or writing my next book or getting my next play or loosing 5 kilo, but for some reason, I don't feel guilty anymore... maybe its my age, maybe it is because I am truly happy with who I am. I don't know but one thing I know is I don't want to question it. Not having guilt is quite liberating.
At the end of the day, I am only letting myself down. I want my life to make a statement but I want more to remember the scenery for the changes it has made over the years and find the beauty in the slight changes too, no matter how big or small they may be.
