It's funny..What gets said in jest or even in a heated moment can leave you wondering. We are such ignorate creatures, sometimes we don't even know if the words in anger or in jest that they can build or distroy. The weird thing is, I can't actually comment on the words said for fear of the net being my worst enemy (unbeknowns to the net) would somehow make it to the person who said it.
I will say though, it has left me a little numb and prayful to some answers. Yet I am too afraid to confront in case the situation my take a sad corner. However I will say I am not too scared of the outcome, just what might be thought of me for even considering anything other than words said in the heat of the moment.
Ah theres the rub though. Do the words mean more? Is there more to it than just surface words. If someone says they would move on (for example) does it actually mean the person has already considered it?
Leaves me wondering.
Friday, August 19, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
living through my children
The one thing I pride myself in is letting my girls do what they want to do when it comes to activities. I thought I was a good parent who didn't sucome to the temptation of living my dreams through them. When I was little all I wanted to do was dance. My mum and dad couldn't afford it and having 4 other brothers and sisters ment money had to stretch a long way.
Today however I question myself on my parenting. I send my girls to ballet at least twice a week. The thing about my oldest daughter is she when it was time to be ready for dance, she couldn't find her dance shoes nor did she groom herself for her lesson. I was so mad. Her shoes weren't to be found and the more I looked and couldn't find them the angrier I got.
I got her to ballet with apologies in toes, excusing her to her teacher for her slack attitude. Then it dawned on me. Am I angry at her for her behaviour or am I angry she shouldn't be treating something like ballet so casual because I never had the opportunity to be a dancer....so I am giving her a hard time because she is treating it all too slack when I would have been more diligent? But then would I have had the same attitude as a 9 year old? Maybe I would be just the same.
I think I will apologise for my attitude.
Today however I question myself on my parenting. I send my girls to ballet at least twice a week. The thing about my oldest daughter is she when it was time to be ready for dance, she couldn't find her dance shoes nor did she groom herself for her lesson. I was so mad. Her shoes weren't to be found and the more I looked and couldn't find them the angrier I got.
I got her to ballet with apologies in toes, excusing her to her teacher for her slack attitude. Then it dawned on me. Am I angry at her for her behaviour or am I angry she shouldn't be treating something like ballet so casual because I never had the opportunity to be a dancer....so I am giving her a hard time because she is treating it all too slack when I would have been more diligent? But then would I have had the same attitude as a 9 year old? Maybe I would be just the same.
I think I will apologise for my attitude.
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