It's a funny thing disappointment. I comes in all shapes and sizes. It comes in emotional, physical and mental. Disappointment can come through missing out on the things we have strived for, this happened when I missed out on funding for my play, it can come when we miss out on tickets to a favourite show or just in life generally. People can disappoint us all the time too. The worst for me is if I disappoint myself, but at this moment, it is disappointment by others.
This walk I am doing on the 4th is slowly becoming a bit of a disappointment. I thought it had been arranged for the family to meet me in the city so we could stay there and take the girls around to the attractions around the city. But this seems like an unlikely happening. In someway I feel a little betrayed. I am not just disappointed, I am sad. Sad because I thought it had all been worked out and it would have been a lovely time for the girls and I am disappointed because I was looking forward to it too.
It would have been nice to walk into a lovely airconditioned room, slumped on the bed and found the spa to help me recover from the big 30 plus walk. And to also not have to worry about anything normal for at least one night and then get up to have a massage to get rid of all the aches and pains.
Now it is been rearanged, I walk and make my own way home. No meeting me in the city, no relaxing with the family and no one to celebrate the my achievement of my walk. Looks like its the bus home for me and that is it. In someway I feel the support has been taken away and I am left to do this all by myself. In fact I am not just disappointed but feeling numb as well and also a little pissed!
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