Sunday, August 14, 2011

living through my children

The one thing I pride myself in is letting my girls do what they want to do when it comes to activities. I thought I was a good parent who didn't sucome to the temptation of living my dreams through them. When I was little all I wanted to do was dance. My mum and dad couldn't afford it and having 4 other brothers and sisters ment money had to stretch a long way.
Today however I question myself on my parenting. I send my girls to ballet at least twice a week. The thing about my oldest daughter is she when it was time to be ready for dance, she couldn't find her dance shoes nor did she groom herself for her lesson. I was so mad. Her shoes weren't to be found and the more I looked and couldn't find them the angrier I got.
I got her to ballet with apologies in toes, excusing her to her teacher for her slack attitude. Then it dawned on me. Am I angry at her for her behaviour or am I angry she shouldn't be treating something like ballet so casual because I never had the opportunity to be a dancer....so I am giving her a hard time because she is treating it all too slack when I would have been more diligent? But then would I have had the same attitude as a 9 year old? Maybe I would be just the same.
I think I will apologise for my attitude.

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